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17 June 2017 @ 07:14 pm
Well! That was a thing.  
Yes, I did try to kill myself. Yes it was a dumb, stupid, selfish, childish, everything thing to do. Yes, I can say it was yet another failure on my part but in this case, it's OK.

I underwent treatment. The pressures and stress that led me to take such drastic action have not abated but rather been turned to '11'. I am struggling to overcome.

Now I sit in a friend's house, using a borrowed PC as decades of my fannish life is destroyed, uncaring, unconcerned. It is an attempt to erase me, revenge for being the unwelcome, unwanted baggage of an awkward marriage. Revenge for being a child beloved by his mother. Revenge for being a person who *gasp* read for PLEASURE, Enjoyment, not just for the needs of the moment like to pass a stupid English class. How dare I have such superior airs? Did I think I was better than them? They're sure showing me now!

F**k them all with a cactus AND porcupine, sideways. Dance all you want in your small world, My world is all of space!

I do not have my beloved Mac. I don't know how often I can check in. Just so you all know.
Esse est percipi: Opinionlolotehe on June 18th, 2017 07:42 am (UTC)
Hey, come over to Dreamwidth where all the cool kids are. You'd left a comment on a post I needed to delete and I DO want to have that discussion with you. We're having it over there and you should be included.

And glad you made it. Mistakes were made, but people make mistakes and at least you get the opportunity to learn from it.
Steve Harrisontochiro998 on June 18th, 2017 01:57 pm (UTC)
Well, if you had included a link to your Dreamwidth I would have gladly gone look! Remember, alien computer, none, NONE of my bookmarks or shortcuts.

I dunno. I've never been one to need to hang with the 'cool kids' even when I was thought to be one. Setting up yet another blog using an alien PC that I may lose access to at any time seems like a path to frustration.

Yet the 'cool kids' are my friends. hurm.

Without getting into anger inducing stuff, I still think the whole 'Abandon LJ!!!' putsch to be more flash emotion than anything else and overall silly and unnecessary in the greater picture of all things. :)

But who knows.
Esse est percipi: Conspiracy/Leftistslolotehe on June 18th, 2017 04:24 pm (UTC)
Meh, we're just there now instead of here.


I'm still Lolotehe there, though. I can add you once you're on.

Edited at 2017-06-18 04:25 pm (UTC)
Stephen "FPilot" Bierce / 美朝深恬: arcadiafrustratedpilot on June 21st, 2017 02:05 am (UTC)
It's time I let you know...because of you, I'm writing a book, and since your story ties into what I'm doing, I'm asking you to consider writing the Foreword.
I just sent in the query this past hour, so it will be a "while" before I can give you all the details. Just know that the effort will benefit the both of us.
Steve Harrisontochiro998 on June 21st, 2017 01:44 pm (UTC)
Well! I'm glad to have been of some help in whatever way. Anything I can do, I will try.
davemerrill on June 28th, 2017 03:38 pm (UTC)
I left a comment without logging in to Livejournal and I was informed it was 'marked as spam', so you might not see it. So here it is again:

We're glad you're still around.

I'm here: http://davemerrill.dreamwidth.org/ - I don't feel comfortable giving Livejournal any advertising revenue or helping their numbers or their clicks or their business model at all, and if that goes even a small way towards repaying the contempt they showed their non-Russian users, then good.

Anyway, these things work the same, no matter what computer you use them from, or where.

Steve Harrisontochiro998 on July 2nd, 2017 04:35 pm (UTC)
Hey, thanks. I'm just late checking things.

World proceeds apace.

This borrowed clunky beast (Vista? How old is THAT as a Windows OS?!)makes me crazy. Nothing is where it's supposed to be. bah. :)
hillsy2khillsy2k on August 8th, 2017 03:17 pm (UTC)
For what it's worth, Steve, I'm glad you failed.
Steve Harrisontochiro998 on August 11th, 2017 12:32 pm (UTC)
Thanks, man, I am too, mostly. :)

I mean, there are still problems and issues and challenges and all that crap, but I've lived to see a world where:

Endless Road SSX is coming to DVD via Discotek

StarzanS has been released in Japan (on Blu-Ray of all things). (!)

Xabungle is going to stream in America.

I'm out of guesses as to what 'totally impossible' thing might happen next. Discotek picks up 1000 Year Queen TV? Imagawa announces he's working on new Giant Robo? Voyager Ent. pulls their head out of their butt and launches a sane, rational and 'right priced' release of Yamato 2199 and 2202 in the USA? (OK, THAT is safely still in the completely impossible category :) )

And a quasi-belated Happy Birthday to you!
Superdeformed: IdeonPunchguyhatesyou on October 2nd, 2017 06:15 pm (UTC)
Congrats on more suffering on this wacky place we call Earth.

I am glad our paths randomly crossed at AWA however many years ago.

I thought everyone went to Twitter/Tumblr/Instagram/Facebook.